The magic of - Maya!

Sangamitra express - 12295
 26-11-2014 - 9:30 A.M, Bangalore
My stomach was on an unusual strike and I wasn't feeling good.  Dragged myself till the train, somehow, and finally sat comfortably, telling myself, 'You okie, You okie!'.
The train touched four different states, Karnataka, Tamil Nadu, Andra Pradesh and Maharastra, finally. We(Me, Mamatha, Gowdru, Bujji, Pavvi) weren't upset about this at all (Sarcasm). We had fun, shared a lot of good moments, ate throughout the journey and saw many new things( including the rest room of the train :P). Also saw a beautiful bunch of birds flying together and making some interesting art while they flew making the bright soothing setting Sun to console.

The night was inky black,
The stars were out to play,
The wind picked up the rhythm of night!
How strange, the World that saw the fiercest battles, stayed calm!

27-11-2014 - 5:40 A.M, Chandrapur railway station.
We hurriedly packed our baggage and got down at the Chandrapur railway station.  After settling inside the waiting lounge , so clean that I could see myself on the mirror-shining and sparkling floor, we waited for Raghu- from the inquisitive explorer, to pick us to the resort.
As I sat on the bench alongside the railway track, keeping my ears busy with music, my eyes caught sight of a huge family( I presume) of street dancers walking from the rear end. They looked shabby and carried huge luggage which equipped their living.

They are weak, they say,
nothing special nor new,
Their abilities are far from few,
But little do they know,
their abilities are from the belief in their potential.
When a blind can hit a target with an arrow,
he can do whatever he wants.
So is each one of us! 

While I kept thinking all this, time just flew and soon it was 11:00 AM. We were escorted by raghu to the resort.

Wait a minute, how can I forget, "The tripod". Gowdru, during our journey in train, boasted off! - "I have a tripod, I will shoot stars in time-lapse". But The tripod liked the train journey so much that, it did not want to join Gowdru. He forgot his tripod in the train, which by now has seen a time-lapse of around 10 days :P

After a series of stupid questions to Raghav during the travel from rialway station to the resort, we freshened and after lunch, we were ready with our gears, for the first ever safari, I would experience.

The forest was thick, green and dry. It resembled truly me!
It was dim and bright, colorful flowers immersed in greenish leaves waved in the wind of thoughts.
Shadows resembled memories, which appear and disappear in a splash.  As we speeded through the jungle, I danced as the breeze of time played.

Possessed in me is the beauty, mildness, fitfulness, wildness, sadness and terror of the jungle. ( :P )

The Sun sparkled golden light every where as it said good-bye  to us and we returned with just spotting the pug marks and listening to the never ending drooling stories from Raghav.

28-11-2014 - Morning : Two safaris and yet no sight of the beast, but the wait for the next safari and stories from the dining hall from other visitors and hummmm the drooling stories yet again from Raghav.

28-11-2014 - Evening : Re-telecast of the episode from morning! But with a different seating arrangement to win the evil gods :P

29-11-2014 :  Something told me it was today. Something inside yapped continuously it is very close to you, I could hear it whisper. Morning safari, was  a failure with respect to spotting, but always a different mood to watch the jungle. It looked new every-time I entered the jungle, so much to learn, so much to observe and so much to get inspired. 

And the climax:
After lunch, the evening safari with some changes in the seating positions in the gipsy. The first one and a half hour was nothing but the jungle with some calls here and there from Sambar and barking deer (like in earlier safaris too) which I sort of was used to ignoring.

I asked the setting Sun about you,
asked the breeze, the twigs, the birds, the monkeys and the mud about you,
Dear love, without seeing you , I am relentlessly praying for the slightest sight of you.
Just once! only once!

At Pandarpouni : 5:30 P.M 
I was yawning when Ismail shouted, "Tiger! Tiger!". I pinched myself to realize it wasn't a dream. There she was from behind the trees on the adjoining parallel road walking like a beauty of terror.
Ravi speed-ed towards her so fast, the the second blink of my eye I was there right before her.
She looked like an angel, walking calmly alongside many gipsy's carrying visitors who were trying to shoot her in burst mode.

For a minute she walked towards the jungle from the road, I felt she was angry with us. She looked at the jungle, looked at the gipsys, heard my voice and walked back towards me. It felt as though she was listening to me talk and whisper to her.   Of all the gipsys she chose the gipsy we rode and showed her every angle for almost close to 20 minutes.
All the did was observe and make an attempt to look into her eyes.

In my life of darkeness, dullness and distress
came like a lightning - MAYA, the beauty, so adorable.
She appeared before me like a goddess,
in those moments of despair and disappointment. 
Amidst those gipsys, when she walked gracefully towards me,
a meaningless void stuck me, which shook my arms and limbs.
As I try to gaze into her extremely beautiful eyes,
the stares into my eyes you gave, are one of the biggest treasures I hold.
Kiss me from your lips,  so that I become all yours,
I would love to be all those million pieces scattered all over the place,
over your sacred life - Dear Maya.
Please don't wake me up from this dream I am living, please don't!

Binocs, gipsy, and a Tigress to look at, and a chocolate to celebrate with friends, a perfect Saturday evening :)

The rest of the story at Tadoba ....... never mind! Who cares!

The train was supposed to arrive at chandrapur at 9:00 PM on 30th. It arrived at 2:30 PM. But the sleep on the platform balanced this wait for me, but Mamta waited like an owl, watching all of us sleep.

As we settled in the train we slept. The next day morning was fresh and satisfying. The journey back was filled with a lot of memories from my trip. As I happened to look back at everything, I was stuck by the sight of a little sister and her brother in the same compartment of out seats. While their mother slept on the berth, they managed to settle in the corner of that berth. The brother so loving and caring and the sister so adorable and cute. While they shared their eateries  and spent time gazing at the window, it reminded me of my loving brother who must be busy sleeping and loitering. But yet he is the biggest gifts I have in my life. Love ya brother.

The blog becomes incomplete without Thanking all my friends who have supported me and bared my nonsense during the trip :P
Without failing to mention, darling Mamata. Thankyou so so much for all the care and warmth. I still say, there is lots one can learn from every five minutes of time spent with you. Thankyou for being there.

Voila! Whata  trip! Whata sighting! :)

A gleaming candle - A dream so true to be REAL!

You are the one that I stay up all night thinking about, the cute things and surprises that you make happen. Damn! What magic have you spilled around me?
Lifeless was my life, to feel the glow it needed your touch.  You changed everything around with a mere touch. Powerful, oh so powerful!

That evening, my phone rang, "come down!", his voice re-vibrated the air around me penetrating through my room window. I gushed down with glee! But wait a minute, it was raining! What a jerk he is. He is all wet.

The excitement did not let any one of us down. May be we were enjoying this little excuse. I plunged on to his back seat and held him so tight like the peel holding the seeds of a pomegranate.Cuddled behind him, his scent brushed my nose as I dug my face into his chest-turned-around. Stopping here and there seeking shelter from the fury of rain drops, I finally reached his place.

"Hush,Hush!!" and I silently entered the house, not my usual behavior though.
"Idiot! You are dreaming. Just shut-up and dream!" my voice cried to myself.
My closed eye lids opened to bunch of beautiful red roses. He was restless, excited, crazy, confused, nervous, all drenched in rain and his eyes twinkled with love.

He said "Shh! close your eyes", before I could say something, and ran into his room kicking the floor backward and "dhadhaaaar!!" shut his door. Phew! The clock continued to do its job.

The wait was finally over- but still the clock continued to tick. I so wish it stopped this moment. I so badly wished.

He had lit a beautiful candle and arranged rose petals around it. Peace was the candle in that darkest hour. When there is nothing and no-one, there will be Silence. But with both of us, Silence still roared inside the room.  My words floated around his ears and never dared to enter them. We were not bored of looking at each other.

The day I met you, I was lonely, confused and depressed. I felt very bad towards myself. You opened my eyes to an unknown beautiful world and showed how beautiful life can be. Being with you today, I can't ask for anything more.

I love you!

There are a lot of things not correct with me, you must understand this. I have a lot of things to confess and a lot of things to set right. Please do not come to life, before I set them right.  As I moved away from you, I fell into a deep dark pit. The darkness told a lot of stories. The darkness was winning over me and I was losing myself to it. Looking down, I could see only one thing, Darkness as far as it goes, not even a blink. Then, like a hope of light, I see you up above the sky, like a star, leaning and looking at me. Before I stretched my arms to reach you, you turned yourself around and moved away.

I cried endlessly.

At-last, broke the barriers, and woke up for a fresh start, early in the morning. Thanks Sun and the beaming rays for it. An angel must have eavesdropped in my dreams and made those true.
Winged- Born to fly - you still make me realize every morning I get up! 

When people thought I went missing....

Fearing my dreams I ran away from my sleep, my pinching heart threw my pain in tears. I needed to bounce back. I have to bring order to chaos somehow, bring sanity back to my life.

Cananoor,  SeaShell beach resort. Three days to ease my trauma.
Through tears of ocean, Smile begins to shine on my face. 
Will you bring me back?
Will you,When I am on the verge of leaving this world? I asked.
 I was grieving, like the song of a shedding flower.  The sea gracefully took it all out of me.  Burning, shining rough waves pulling you closer with its wide open arms.
I found my happiness back, which I had sold.

As the rain drops fell on my face, the chit-a-pata on the roof, as everything turned green,  heavens cried along with me and tears brought joy. I wanted to LIVE. I discovered a new ME, my soul came alive, when I danced in rain to the music of the gushing sea.  Like the forgone waves, my pain was gone!

I sat by the balcony viewing the huge, gigantic, never ending sea, warming my hands with a tea cup, one by one the drops glided down the roof,  the ocean calls out  in soft whispers, a sound no one can hear, a promise to take out all my pain and a promise of peace.

I wake up everyday, in the most pleasant way, drowning in love, and find a door which opens up to the wonders of nature.  Chirping birds, land through the tides, ocean and serene sand and escape into the clouds to the land of dreams.

Another beautiful sun-set was waiting for me.  As the light from above faded slowly, I left behind the life I once knew. The vibrant colors of THE beautiful ever sun-set I ever saw faded and the night grew darker, I was lost at sea in a cold and lonely dark...To accept, to welcome To embrace the peace.
But I can still make out his dark manly tides in the pale moonlight.

I was alive.

To my guardian angel,
In those tides, scented breeze,  in the distant stars, YOU ARE. You are in my warm smile, in the child in my tears, in those dark fearful moments of night, the birds that fly. You are closest to me now.  Brimming with care you always hold my hand.  You prepare me to fly and cherish seeing me fly.  Before you entered my life, it was UNKNOWN, did I tell you, now that you are with me, the walk is so easy.

When I thought I had lost,
He was taking it away for me to move on.
When I thought I had given up,
He came in and told me to grow strong not old.
Had I won a thing not to be mine?
I could never lose what I never had.
I could find it now, I told myself.

--- come live with me, I will open my wings and catch the stars.

Hiding in the woods...Oneday!

I am just going to say it, say it again... I was messed up! Nothing seemed alright. Did I mention nothing?
That's when I got the brilliant idea to retire. I wanted to retire at the age of.. ooh some age!  I had not enough savings to live for even a week while I attempted to execute the retirement stunt.  So quite naturally the stunt was harder than it sounded on paper. The retirement would have to wait , in the mean time, I needed a job… 

While I waited for a million dollar job offer to dawn on me, hopefully,  it was time for something new in life. A trip probably....

Was bored looking out of a fancy looking window yet again, it should be someplace AWAY.. lost in the woods, living the life of wild and birds. "Screw the system and get there buddy!! " a voice from within screamed at me.

Headed off in a new direction for approximately 8 hours. Fallen leaves from trees spread over the road. It was a long night and left alone as the Sun fainted. Everything was so dark and I was scared.. But there was a hand gently confronting me and silently telling everything was fine.  I wasn't walking alone anymore .. pulled over finally at the destined tree top house after a roller coaster ride on roads which were just named roads and didn't look like one.


Loved the house. Loved the lifestyle. It’s innovative, creative, ecological, green and unobtrusive. Most of all, it BEAUTIFUL and PLEASING to the eye! ! !

My world was renewed! 

 Sometimes life veers off in directions that you’re not expecting. That was my story for the next one day.   Some exciting and profound things transpired, while the tree-house was left hanging in the balance and an added madness. After settling in, I was in the lap of luxury.  When the morning Sun rays tapped ma cheeks, I said hello to so many birds which flew around the place chirping on their daily routine.

Personal favorite music, sleeping under the stars, spotting deers, peacocks, elephants, darkness, dreadful silence, campfire, and pathetic food. I could compromise on the food for the rest of them... I kept surprising myself while I went out and did things I had dreamed of...

Free as a bird…That’s what was missing in my life!

Throughout my journey there was a power that provided me with a steadfast example of ingenuity, self-belief, and incredible will power. I could never have accomplished any of this without him... 

when I became a kid...

My heart had been laying empty for days
you came as a warming tide - filling the empty spaces.
Priceless were the moments when I lay in your lap.
Sadly, this time will be gone, will be gone in sometime.
How nice it would be if the time froze.
The colorful walls of my cage were broken,
and my broken heart was healed.
My open heart felt victorious and yet utterly defeated.
I found my world in your lap,
a world that put me to sleep of peace and love.
Dancing night and passing wind were jealous
as you tenderly and sweetly held my chubby cheeks
You brushed away all my horrible thoughts
ensuring that I can have my sound sleep,
So I wont have any bad thought.
There is a part of mine which always grieves,
but with your arms on my forehead, my whole soul was at peace,
free from all stresses of the human life.
With words without lips, you silently whispered,
"I am always there".
I felt you were sent to me from heavens above
to keep me safe as you watched over me.
Without the least idea what is our destination
I confess to you baby, I love you!
As years slip by, the boundless joy you gave me has left a mark, 
a reminder of this time,
FOREVER.