One night, I sat on my apartment terrace, on the hard stairs looking at the sky decorated with stars and gorgeous lightening now and then. The wind rushed into me, grabbing me, hugging me and pampering me. I started thinking about the day. I thought about so many things. Thoughts lined up my mind like a disciplined line of ants. They kept coming.
I thought mainly about my grandma. It was her anniversary. I thanked her for many lovely moments I spent with her. Remembered, the sweets she secured for me, the early morning coffee breaks, the lovely kolam, the tasty curry, remembered her advices, the evening walks, the "one rupee" she used to give me to buy a toffee which I would merrily celebrate and many many more such memories.
"You will always remain my super-star grandma!" Love you! Miss you :(
I thought about a friend who wouldn't hesitate to hold my arms when I am in pain. Missed him.
I thought about the crazy drive to work that day. I thought about the burnt eggs. A problem which I am trying to fix since ages - oh my! how can I not think about that. The pretty girl walking along-side the road grabbing her mom's hand firmly. She was so adorable. The vegetable market. The forgotten pant belt, a call from a friend.
I blushingly smiled when I thought about Bane quitting smoking cause I asked him to. "Please stop it!" I told him. Remembered a colleague of mine quoting " Bane dint quit smoking when his mom asked him to, but, he did when someone special has asked him to!". I dint stop blushing since then. Its too good to be a true fact. He has quit but certainly not cause I told. Duuh! Let me think, for now, may be because I told. It feels good this way.
I thought about the huge snake I saw which was crossing the road while I drove. Terrifying!
Thought about tobacco - not sure why,about tomatoes, about stars, about Ajith, about trees, about death, about life, about birds, watchman, cricket, David Beckham and his hair-styles, about pointers, about the car dent, about The Cheshire Cat in the novel Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, thought about debts.
The thoughts kept flowing until I reached this particular one,
Offering coffee to my maid - Laxmi in a ceramic cup and not in the usual isolated steel cup which she held in her tiny cold arms. She lifted her timid eyes and smiled. She held a tear drop in her eyes and an unforgettable thankful smile in her lips. Thank you Laxmi for all the help :)
Often we remain so involved and busy with our day to day life that we become selfishly mean. Today, I learned, I am worrying about so many things in my life,or rather, I am cribbing about so many things which aren't right. And have forgotten that my life is like a mirror. I smile at it, and for sure, it smiles back at me. It can transform the unbearable tears into something bearable. SMILE!
There was an energetic expansive feeling in the air encouraging me to take the leap of faith. This felt foreign to me while I climbed down the stairs and reached my bed, but I guess it's time to embrace it. "You have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world." I told myself.
and cuddled to sleep warmly...!
I thought mainly about my grandma. It was her anniversary. I thanked her for many lovely moments I spent with her. Remembered, the sweets she secured for me, the early morning coffee breaks, the lovely kolam, the tasty curry, remembered her advices, the evening walks, the "one rupee" she used to give me to buy a toffee which I would merrily celebrate and many many more such memories.
"You will always remain my super-star grandma!" Love you! Miss you :(
I thought about a friend who wouldn't hesitate to hold my arms when I am in pain. Missed him.
I thought about the crazy drive to work that day. I thought about the burnt eggs. A problem which I am trying to fix since ages - oh my! how can I not think about that. The pretty girl walking along-side the road grabbing her mom's hand firmly. She was so adorable. The vegetable market. The forgotten pant belt, a call from a friend.
I blushingly smiled when I thought about Bane quitting smoking cause I asked him to. "Please stop it!" I told him. Remembered a colleague of mine quoting " Bane dint quit smoking when his mom asked him to, but, he did when someone special has asked him to!". I dint stop blushing since then. Its too good to be a true fact. He has quit but certainly not cause I told. Duuh! Let me think, for now, may be because I told. It feels good this way.
I thought about the huge snake I saw which was crossing the road while I drove. Terrifying!
Thought about tobacco - not sure why,about tomatoes, about stars, about Ajith, about trees, about death, about life, about birds, watchman, cricket, David Beckham and his hair-styles, about pointers, about the car dent, about The Cheshire Cat in the novel Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, thought about debts.
The thoughts kept flowing until I reached this particular one,
Offering coffee to my maid - Laxmi in a ceramic cup and not in the usual isolated steel cup which she held in her tiny cold arms. She lifted her timid eyes and smiled. She held a tear drop in her eyes and an unforgettable thankful smile in her lips. Thank you Laxmi for all the help :)
Often we remain so involved and busy with our day to day life that we become selfishly mean. Today, I learned, I am worrying about so many things in my life,or rather, I am cribbing about so many things which aren't right. And have forgotten that my life is like a mirror. I smile at it, and for sure, it smiles back at me. It can transform the unbearable tears into something bearable. SMILE!
There was an energetic expansive feeling in the air encouraging me to take the leap of faith. This felt foreign to me while I climbed down the stairs and reached my bed, but I guess it's time to embrace it. "You have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world." I told myself.
and cuddled to sleep warmly...!
